30 June 2009 - 8 Months From Now
I've done quite a bit of thinking for quite a while. and I guess I need to have to remind myself.
when everything thats supposed to end ends, it will be the day I face everything once more, and probably the last.
when everything thats supposed to end ends, it will be the day I face everything once more, and probably the last.
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As Good As DEAD on 8:39 pm
29 June 2009 - Ain't Easy
its never easy to keep things away.
never easy to turn a blind eye.
I admit once more, that it was tormenting.
but I know I have to. I'm exhausted.
forgotten, or hiding the truth. either way brought pains.
never easy to turn a blind eye.
I admit once more, that it was tormenting.
but I know I have to. I'm exhausted.
forgotten, or hiding the truth. either way brought pains.
Labels: thoughts
As Good As DEAD on 8:42 pm
28 June 2009 - First Blood or Get First Blooded
TOMORROW ! 2 PAPERS IN A ROW ! HOW HIGH IS THAT !
I AM SO DOOM-ED
whatever. anyways, spread the Blessings around.
I AM SO DOOM-ED
whatever. anyways, spread the Blessings around.
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As Good As DEAD on 11:41 pm
28 June 2009 - Can't Sleep, Then Study?
the very problem with me is that I have got irregular sleeping habits again. I can only turn in at 4 or 5+am in the morning and then sleep till the afternoon, and stay active till evening and take a nap for an hour or two, and then wake up, and stay up till 4 or 5+ again.
its already Sunday today, and I can't adjust my sleeping habits still. I wonder if I'm able to wake up on time and take my MST on Monday and the subsequent days. I'm really afraid I can't get up and missed it and there goes the 10 to 30% of the modules.
I really can't sleep right now, I feel tired but my eyes are wide open, even if I shut them tight, I stil cannot fall asleep. something is very wrong with me like seriously.
I guess I shall study. I hope I can absorb enough.
No matter what happened in the past
like whether he did molest kids and got called a pedophile
or perhaps changing skin colour
or whatever negative remarks you can think of
The fact that when he leaves this world, many would mourn for him.
for those who are his fans, they wouldn't mind his flaws. all in the news now are all talking about how great a man he is.
everybody has flaws, its only whether we choose to pick them out specially or not. I'm neutral, but I do pity his early death, at just 50 years old. (in our country time, its about 4+ in the morning) for those who wanna find out, go wiki it, its updated.
Nobody is Perfect, but there are people who are Contrary to Perfect, and many who are far from Decent.
You can call yourself a Small Part of the World, but if you term yourself Nobody, you've Sinned for thinking too highly of yourself.
its already Sunday today, and I can't adjust my sleeping habits still. I wonder if I'm able to wake up on time and take my MST on Monday and the subsequent days. I'm really afraid I can't get up and missed it and there goes the 10 to 30% of the modules.
I really can't sleep right now, I feel tired but my eyes are wide open, even if I shut them tight, I stil cannot fall asleep. something is very wrong with me like seriously.
I guess I shall study. I hope I can absorb enough.
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As Good As DEAD on 2:35 am
26 June 2009 - King of Pop
No matter what happened in the past
like whether he did molest kids and got called a pedophile
or perhaps changing skin colour
or whatever negative remarks you can think of
The fact that when he leaves this world, many would mourn for him.
for those who are his fans, they wouldn't mind his flaws. all in the news now are all talking about how great a man he is.
everybody has flaws, its only whether we choose to pick them out specially or not. I'm neutral, but I do pity his early death, at just 50 years old. (in our country time, its about 4+ in the morning) for those who wanna find out, go wiki it, its updated.
Nobody is Perfect, but there are people who are Contrary to Perfect, and many who are far from Decent.
You can call yourself a Small Part of the World, but if you term yourself Nobody, you've Sinned for thinking too highly of yourself.
Labels: topics and news
As Good As DEAD on 6:45 pm
25 June 2009 - A Guess Which May End All
let this small little guess I made be wrong.
because if I'm right about it...
its all over..
youfailedtoseethelastwordsIhadleftbehindinthatcorner
WHOEVER DOESN'T WATCH THIS, IS A NOOB ! TRANSFORMERS !! HERE I COME !! (after MST I guess)
because if I'm right about it...
its all over..
youfailedtoseethelastwordsIhadleftbehindinthatcorner
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As Good As DEAD on 8:46 pm
24 June 2009 - Revenge of The Fallen
WHOEVER DOESN'T WATCH THIS, IS A NOOB ! TRANSFORMERS !! HERE I COME !! (after MST I guess)
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As Good As DEAD on 9:12 pm
24 June 2009 - Dread
dreading the day to step outta my house
mind full of thoughts
felt so lost, so screwed
feels as though the life of hanging around with the people I want has ended once again
I need to do everything I dont want to all over again.
the thought of it, makes me feel utterly uncomfortable.
why is my life so screwed?
mind full of thoughts
felt so lost, so screwed
feels as though the life of hanging around with the people I want has ended once again
I need to do everything I dont want to all over again.
the thought of it, makes me feel utterly uncomfortable.
why is my life so screwed?
Labels: thoughts
As Good As DEAD on 12:42 am
21 June 2009 - The Truths And The Delusional
everything between two people was never disclosed. even if others may have heard, or say certain things, it may not be the Truth.
the only True Answer lies within oneself. yet the choice to create Illusions is there. Believing is no longer a simple thing.
it's freaking near 5am now, and my body is still active. the irregular sleeping hours/insomnia haunts me every now and then. and I'm supposed to wake up at 7 in the morning later on.
there's loads of thoughts that I can't put away. and as I looked at my troubled friend who had difficulties, got his problems solved, telling me all the good news, naturally, anyone who listened would feel happy for him, but I'm utterly envious as well. such things don't really happen to me after all. but then again, ultimately I'm probably not the most unfortunate being as well. look forward perhaps..
On the way home with Matthew from school, at Dover MRT station, in which the door opened on the left side. it freaking "kiapped" my bag zip. and so in order to get off from Jurong instead of Joo Koon, I had to pull my bag out, thus my zip had to be sacrificed.
and seriously, I detest people who die die wanna squeeze in the MRT despite being so full. I probably need to buy a vehicle in future, so I don't have to bloody get squeezed like in a can of tuna.
I do not believe in that kind of forgetfulness. if it really exist, its simply a sin. In conclusion, I have no idea what went wrong still.
The Lies are never ending, yet the Willingness to Believe was always there.
Confusion, Discomfort, Excruciation, Fear, Hallucination, Insanity.
its full of Complications.
the only True Answer lies within oneself. yet the choice to create Illusions is there. Believing is no longer a simple thing.
it's freaking near 5am now, and my body is still active. the irregular sleeping hours/insomnia haunts me every now and then. and I'm supposed to wake up at 7 in the morning later on.
there's loads of thoughts that I can't put away. and as I looked at my troubled friend who had difficulties, got his problems solved, telling me all the good news, naturally, anyone who listened would feel happy for him, but I'm utterly envious as well. such things don't really happen to me after all. but then again, ultimately I'm probably not the most unfortunate being as well. look forward perhaps..
On the way home with Matthew from school, at Dover MRT station, in which the door opened on the left side. it freaking "kiapped" my bag zip. and so in order to get off from Jurong instead of Joo Koon, I had to pull my bag out, thus my zip had to be sacrificed.
and seriously, I detest people who die die wanna squeeze in the MRT despite being so full. I probably need to buy a vehicle in future, so I don't have to bloody get squeezed like in a can of tuna.
I do not believe in that kind of forgetfulness. if it really exist, its simply a sin. In conclusion, I have no idea what went wrong still.
The Lies are never ending, yet the Willingness to Believe was always there.
Confusion, Discomfort, Excruciation, Fear, Hallucination, Insanity.
its full of Complications.
As Good As DEAD on 4:54 am
18 June 2009 - Simply Fear
I choose to believe what I see, and what I feel. though its two different things.
The decision I made, was because of the fear that I carry. the situation is complicated as it is as of now...and I don't want to do anything, for fear that it would just make things worse.
its driving me nuts, whenever I think of it.
I can't express myself afterall.
an obstacle, that I can't remove. serious shit.
The decision I made, was because of the fear that I carry. the situation is complicated as it is as of now...and I don't want to do anything, for fear that it would just make things worse.
its driving me nuts, whenever I think of it.
I can't express myself afterall.
an obstacle, that I can't remove. serious shit.
Labels: pains
As Good As DEAD on 7:27 pm
15 June 2009 - We Do Not Know Each Other's Thoughts
because everything that was written, I dont think it was read.
I have no idea, what you are thinking.
Neither do you perhaps.
thats the thing which really, brought me down.
Do I have the chance to start from scratch again..
I have no idea, what you are thinking.
Neither do you perhaps.
thats the thing which really, brought me down.
Do I have the chance to start from scratch again..
Labels: pains
As Good As DEAD on 8:56 pm
15 June 2009 - Working and Slacking
working with Simon is fun, especially when we can joke around. god damn the IT fair today, it wasn't as packed as the first day but those promoters were shouting their lungs out with the microphone that I almost lost my sense of hearing.
matthew came to visit me and CC, and then left with his friend soon after. after all the packing up, dinner time with CC, at 11+ in the night. do people actually call that a dinner?
and so nonsense came out from our mouths, as usual. love poems for the topic this time. not really a love poem, but more of prank poems, and instead of flattering girls, it can actually make them pissed off or cry. so I thought of one now.
oh hell, you got the rosiest cheeks I've ever seen
its the pimples all over your face
that makes it actually look like a monkey ass
your face looks like my vacuum cleaner
as though it can suck every single thing away
Strictly no offense, but as you can see..these are jokes that we actually think of and laugh among ourselves.
work tomorrow. not enough sleep for sure.
and when they are satisfied with their lives, surely they don't need something to change their lives, and maybe make it for the worse..right?
Helpless, is what I would say..
matthew came to visit me and CC, and then left with his friend soon after. after all the packing up, dinner time with CC, at 11+ in the night. do people actually call that a dinner?
and so nonsense came out from our mouths, as usual. love poems for the topic this time. not really a love poem, but more of prank poems, and instead of flattering girls, it can actually make them pissed off or cry. so I thought of one now.
oh hell, you got the rosiest cheeks I've ever seen
its the pimples all over your face
that makes it actually look like a monkey ass
your face looks like my vacuum cleaner
as though it can suck every single thing away
Strictly no offense, but as you can see..these are jokes that we actually think of and laugh among ourselves.
work tomorrow. not enough sleep for sure.
and when they are satisfied with their lives, surely they don't need something to change their lives, and maybe make it for the worse..right?
Helpless, is what I would say..
Labels: hanging out, random
As Good As DEAD on 12:51 am
12 June 2009 - Birthdays
11 June
Happy Birthday to you once again =)
and WeeChuan turns 19 today as well ! Happy Birthday~
Happy Birthday to you once again =)
and WeeChuan turns 19 today as well ! Happy Birthday~
Labels: birthdays
As Good As DEAD on 3:00 am
09 June 2009 - Motivation
I need the thing thats stated in the title. Whenever I do things alone I tend to stop in a short while..only when theres people who are doing things with me I will get to the mood of it and try to give it my all.
but actually, no time to train. amount of workload is sickening.
but actually, no time to train. amount of workload is sickening.
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As Good As DEAD on 5:37 pm
08 June 2009 - The Ones Who Are True
the past we had, the setbacks we faced, the problems in the past and the present, and maybe in the future, we share them all.
its a little sudden, but through this ordeal, we know who are really true in our lives. many people that we know, they are either touch and go or, you want them out of your life.
up till now, I've always believed that, there will people who makes impact in my life. and yeah, now I have found 3 more buddies.
perhaps its what they say...lose some, gain some.
I guess I've lost something of extreme value to me, and in turn managed to get something new. my emotions are of both ups and downs.
my anger and hate for these 5 months has appeased as of now. I don't have to keep forcing myself many things anymore. perhaps things are better for you this way. all the past disappointments and everything else, shall dissolve from here on. our eyes..may or may not meet, as long as that barrier exists, it is clear that there is nothing I can do.
and I hope I'm still able to fulfill the last promise I made to myself for you.
because you were once so true, and thats why I really wanted to cherish you so, even though I failed to.
its a little sudden, but through this ordeal, we know who are really true in our lives. many people that we know, they are either touch and go or, you want them out of your life.
up till now, I've always believed that, there will people who makes impact in my life. and yeah, now I have found 3 more buddies.
perhaps its what they say...lose some, gain some.
I guess I've lost something of extreme value to me, and in turn managed to get something new. my emotions are of both ups and downs.
my anger and hate for these 5 months has appeased as of now. I don't have to keep forcing myself many things anymore. perhaps things are better for you this way. all the past disappointments and everything else, shall dissolve from here on. our eyes..may or may not meet, as long as that barrier exists, it is clear that there is nothing I can do.
and I hope I'm still able to fulfill the last promise I made to myself for you.
because you were once so true, and thats why I really wanted to cherish you so, even though I failed to.
As Good As DEAD on 7:30 pm
05 June 2009 - Choice
When I have a choice between two or more things, I will pick the one which can bring across a smile at the end of the day.
Either knock it off, or take it all.
Either knock it off, or take it all.
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As Good As DEAD on 12:35 am
03 June 2009 - What I Really Want
I know there is a particular something I want, but somehow...I felt that I'm easy with everything else, despite the fact that, I only want the thing I desire.
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As Good As DEAD on 12:49 am
01 June 2009 - Flawless Stories Never Exist
many things that we understand, as long as it doesn't affect us, it remains silent until it rushes towards us. as mere humans, living in this cruel world, we learn to lie, we learn to be selfish, we learn to think only for ourselves.
there is no such thing as flawless in a book or story. because for every matter that surfaces, there are bound to be lies, only a matter of how you actually believe, and make a wrong judgment and conclusion.
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Life's like a Straw. Theres only Devil who teach you how to lie.
there is no such thing as flawless in a book or story. because for every matter that surfaces, there are bound to be lies, only a matter of how you actually believe, and make a wrong judgment and conclusion.
nothing will change, because we cannot correct history, even though we know more.
it doesn't matter if none of you here understands what I'm saying, just know one thing.
Life's like a Straw. Theres only Devil who teach you how to lie.
Labels: thoughts
As Good As DEAD on 3:08 am
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