28 September 2009 - One Step Further !
I feel good today. I advanced with my partner within a month, and I feel proud of myself. Maybe I'm not there yet, but its worthwhile trying, and a way to boost myself more.
MT FTW
MT FTW
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As Good As DEAD on 10:19 pm
27 September 2009 - Its Like a Roller Coaster Ride
ups and downs in my life. things that made me happy, like hanging out for bowling, or slacking away and cycling with the cutest things alive in East Coast as well as playing Mahjong. occasionally having street basketball, turning up for FYP (sigh), stay at home and stone.
having heard my mum nagging about me going to work when I can only work during certain days, I try to work whenever I can to earn $57 for 12 hours in a factory where the air con is cold like wtf. work was not tough though, and the people there are nice, probably because I'm the only teenager and the rest are adults.
training caused both my shins to have blue black. when the sharp bone clashes with each other, it goes 'ouch'. but I like the people there, and having found a buddy to team up with there is great.
all the money that I've earned would be paying for all the expenses. so on and off I've never really earned anything. this holiday is probably doing me some good. I found some resolve to do certain things sometimes. I shouldn't dwell too much on certain things that keeps me down, and just to keep myself as busy as possible.
However, no matter what I do, I feel as though I'm dying off bit by bit.
Time flies for hangouts, slow when I'm working, stops when the voice starts residing in my head.
having heard my mum nagging about me going to work when I can only work during certain days, I try to work whenever I can to earn $57 for 12 hours in a factory where the air con is cold like wtf. work was not tough though, and the people there are nice, probably because I'm the only teenager and the rest are adults.
training caused both my shins to have blue black. when the sharp bone clashes with each other, it goes 'ouch'. but I like the people there, and having found a buddy to team up with there is great.
all the money that I've earned would be paying for all the expenses. so on and off I've never really earned anything. this holiday is probably doing me some good. I found some resolve to do certain things sometimes. I shouldn't dwell too much on certain things that keeps me down, and just to keep myself as busy as possible.
However, no matter what I do, I feel as though I'm dying off bit by bit.
Time flies for hangouts, slow when I'm working, stops when the voice starts residing in my head.
As Good As DEAD on 1:15 pm
23 September 2009 - SCREW-driver
exam results that is. got pulled down. I guess I failed terribly into achieving my own goal for this semester.
whatever.
happy times are always short, to the extent it only last a few days. frustration can last for almost a year. 9 months and counting.
whatever.
happy times are always short, to the extent it only last a few days. frustration can last for almost a year. 9 months and counting.
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As Good As DEAD on 12:58 pm
16 September 2009 - Resolve
I have to remind myself constantly,
THAT I CANNOT BE LAZY !
I shall go today and tomorrow.
THAT I CANNOT BE LAZY !
I shall go today and tomorrow.
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As Good As DEAD on 3:19 pm
13 September 2009 - Enduring The 'Ordeal'
rotting away for the past 2 weeks, I had much to think of, like whatever had taken place for the past few months.
as I reflected upon those stuffs, 8 months had already passed...and somehow I managed to survive through this 'ordeal' or whatever it is. it was something nobody would understand how it really felt.
I could feel that uneasiness frequently, and it pissed me off from time to time. no matter how I tried to distant myself away, it could never get too far somehow, for I'm trapped in a small area where I could never get away from.
"stupid isn't it? why would I go to such great lengths and make such sacrifices that won't benefit at all?" was what I thought.
it wasn't a sacrifice perhaps, but a last thing that I can do for someone who did much for me.
true, we can't even smile, much less talking about making each other happy. pains were the only thing I gave. and that was the only reason I could figure out all the while, why things turned out that way 8 months ago.
what others may think, I don't wanna care, but what you think, matters a whole lot.
I tried my best to keep as much things as possible to myself, but it seems that I've fail terribly. as the day approaches nearer, it just gets more painful. Pessimism and hesitation is what caught me up. maybe its insignificant and thats why, a message short wouldn't matter at all
I'm more than halfway through now, this excruciating nonsense. I'll be done with it damn soon perhaps.
and one more asshole to go to that extremity, curse you. but I'll thank you for teaching me, what bullshit and endurance is about.
as I reflected upon those stuffs, 8 months had already passed...and somehow I managed to survive through this 'ordeal' or whatever it is. it was something nobody would understand how it really felt.
I could feel that uneasiness frequently, and it pissed me off from time to time. no matter how I tried to distant myself away, it could never get too far somehow, for I'm trapped in a small area where I could never get away from.
"stupid isn't it? why would I go to such great lengths and make such sacrifices that won't benefit at all?" was what I thought.
it wasn't a sacrifice perhaps, but a last thing that I can do for someone who did much for me.
true, we can't even smile, much less talking about making each other happy. pains were the only thing I gave. and that was the only reason I could figure out all the while, why things turned out that way 8 months ago.
what others may think, I don't wanna care, but what you think, matters a whole lot.
I tried my best to keep as much things as possible to myself, but it seems that I've fail terribly. as the day approaches nearer, it just gets more painful. Pessimism and hesitation is what caught me up. maybe its insignificant and thats why, a message short wouldn't matter at all
I'm more than halfway through now, this excruciating nonsense. I'll be done with it damn soon perhaps.
and one more asshole to go to that extremity, curse you. but I'll thank you for teaching me, what bullshit and endurance is about.
As Good As DEAD on 6:31 am
06 September 2009 - The Doglike Room
I've a real 'cute' buddy, who was rearranging her room and she was fretting bout how to go about placing her tables and all..and then...I had a shock of my life, when I saw something. Have you ever seen a room that's shaped like a Dog? or at least, that was how the artist drew it.
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Supposedly, this is the layout of the room. can imagine? its alright, I will aid you.
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TOTALLY DALMATION ! LOL !
then she got another friend, who said it looked like an Ambulance (wtf -.-)
well, I imagined it to be like this, if its an ambulance that is...but stillllllll~ I still find it look like a dog. what do you guys think? xD
dumbdumb alicia. LOL.
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As Good As DEAD on 1:13 am
03 September 2009 - Exams Aftermath
finally over, after a long struggle of studying like some mad boy, putting so much stress on myself just because of that inner goal I wanted to achieve.
theres still FYP during the holidays, which makes life boring. but whatever. maybe I should just do some stuffs that can probably keep my mind off certain matters..so that I won't go insane throughout this holidays.
Life's a bleak sometimes.
because Your life is better than it used to be, I want to believe that decision and determination made so far is right. its excruciating, but I still have to endure.
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theres still FYP during the holidays, which makes life boring. but whatever. maybe I should just do some stuffs that can probably keep my mind off certain matters..so that I won't go insane throughout this holidays.
Life's a bleak sometimes.
because Your life is better than it used to be, I want to believe that decision and determination made so far is right. its excruciating, but I still have to endure.
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As Good As DEAD on 4:51 am
01 September 2009 - Last Paper Tomorrow
is higher maths. took 3 major papers already, only 1 is manageable, while the rest was as good as dead.
I should be happy at the fact that the examination ends tomorrow, but in fact...I'm not. I'm tired of having to see facades. ever since two incidents that literally killed me, I don't want a third time that will rip part of my life off again. I really hate it.
Fuck Exams.
I should be happy at the fact that the examination ends tomorrow, but in fact...I'm not. I'm tired of having to see facades. ever since two incidents that literally killed me, I don't want a third time that will rip part of my life off again. I really hate it.
Fuck Exams.
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As Good As DEAD on 11:50 pm
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But do you understand its language?
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