08 March 2009 - "Holidays" With Work
I've a lack of understanding as to what I'm doing and listening to for my so called attachment / training. There's many things I couldn't figure out, be it in lecture notes or the practical itself, I only knew a little bit of theory, but I don't really know how to apply it. I find myself kinda stupid at times, as to why I've chose this course back then, its too competitive for me.
had I known, theres so much to go through, in and out of school life, I would have taken another path, and I'm sure it would have been much better, with a different life. no point thinking though, because I'm practically stuck at where I am without a choice to pave a new way out, unless I wanna waste 2 years and nearly 3k bucks of school fees that my parents paid.
I have no idea on how to do the logbook at all. the more I stared at it with the lecture notes, the more frustrating it gets. its not that I don't wanna listen to practical, but the trainer is a lil soft spoken, so there were few who were behind and couldn't hear him, and now I'm having big trouble handling work again and again.
throughout the two years, I didn't put any effort into anything partly because of the lack of interest, and the hate of studying that has been a habit since young. studying in an environment where there is a lack of satisfaction and contentment brings me nowhere, its much different in secondary school life.
so now I'm whining away about the work I'm having, when I'm supposedly having holidays. theres practical and lectures everyday, a test on Thursday on memory work, and then punctuality, effort blahblahblah, everything is observed which is no different from a prison, because freedom is lost.
that explains the neverending sighs. theres still shitloads of things that will be toppling down soon. I realised, my life has took a turn for the worse, it changes every now and then, but never gets any better.
2 years ago, I should have taken another path which is not as hectic as this one. but well, I learnt something here as well, testing my bloody patience. its not that I wanna be an asshole at times, but I have to be one under certain circumstances.
My life is like INITIAL D's Routeway, with so many turnings, turn and turn and turn and turn, waiting to crash against the wall or fall off the cliff someday
P.S - to alicia and others: No more onions here, I won't update them on this blog. so just go the other link and read
had I known, theres so much to go through, in and out of school life, I would have taken another path, and I'm sure it would have been much better, with a different life. no point thinking though, because I'm practically stuck at where I am without a choice to pave a new way out, unless I wanna waste 2 years and nearly 3k bucks of school fees that my parents paid.
I have no idea on how to do the logbook at all. the more I stared at it with the lecture notes, the more frustrating it gets. its not that I don't wanna listen to practical, but the trainer is a lil soft spoken, so there were few who were behind and couldn't hear him, and now I'm having big trouble handling work again and again.
throughout the two years, I didn't put any effort into anything partly because of the lack of interest, and the hate of studying that has been a habit since young. studying in an environment where there is a lack of satisfaction and contentment brings me nowhere, its much different in secondary school life.
so now I'm whining away about the work I'm having, when I'm supposedly having holidays. theres practical and lectures everyday, a test on Thursday on memory work, and then punctuality, effort blahblahblah, everything is observed which is no different from a prison, because freedom is lost.
that explains the neverending sighs. theres still shitloads of things that will be toppling down soon. I realised, my life has took a turn for the worse, it changes every now and then, but never gets any better.
2 years ago, I should have taken another path which is not as hectic as this one. but well, I learnt something here as well, testing my bloody patience. its not that I wanna be an asshole at times, but I have to be one under certain circumstances.
My life is like INITIAL D's Routeway, with so many turnings, turn and turn and turn and turn, waiting to crash against the wall or fall off the cliff someday
P.S - to alicia and others: No more onions here, I won't update them on this blog. so just go the other link and read
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