30 November 2009 - The Christmas Month is Coming
today's the last day of November, and so...the end of year is coming once again. time flies I must say..in a blink of an eye, I'm already near the end of my study life when secondary school life seemed only like few days back...
whenever Christmas is approaching, nothing good comes to me. even though there are celebrations here and there, decorations on the streets of Singapore, countdown sessions and whatnot, nothing amazes me, because every Christmas, I experienced more pains than happiness.
so tell me, would this year's Christmas be different somehow? I wonder.
Christmas songs are just so, poking my body and making holes.
whenever Christmas is approaching, nothing good comes to me. even though there are celebrations here and there, decorations on the streets of Singapore, countdown sessions and whatnot, nothing amazes me, because every Christmas, I experienced more pains than happiness.
so tell me, would this year's Christmas be different somehow? I wonder.
Christmas songs are just so, poking my body and making holes.
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As Good As DEAD on 8:39 pm
29 November 2009 - Matthew's 19
The Tallman's Birthday.
Bugis
Iluma
and the one with the cap acting as though hes playing. LOL.
dinner at wheelock place NYDC
Main Courses + Desserts
and when night falls...
point point point
again and again
and then a piece of tissue came to the hand. wtf.
hj catching star
the wtfs
do not. yes DO NOT, ask why I looked like that, because I dunno too. LOL.
back to homeland
when crazy people hang out with each other, theres no such thing as formality, only plain craziness.
28 November 2009 - Happy Birthday Matthew ! :O
things may not be clear, but just by looking at these bits and pieces, we can piece everything out.
P.S: I totally forgot about this.
vs
Hokage vs NYDC-kage (got dog somemore lol)
Bugis
Iluma
and the one with the cap acting as though hes playing. LOL.
dinner at wheelock place NYDC
Main Courses + Desserts
and when night falls...
point point point
again and again
and then a piece of tissue came to the hand. wtf.
hj catching star
the wtfs
do not. yes DO NOT, ask why I looked like that, because I dunno too. LOL.
back to homeland
when crazy people hang out with each other, theres no such thing as formality, only plain craziness.
28 November 2009 - Happy Birthday Matthew ! :O
things may not be clear, but just by looking at these bits and pieces, we can piece everything out.
P.S: I totally forgot about this.
vs
Hokage vs NYDC-kage (got dog somemore lol)
Labels: birthdays, hanging out, memories
As Good As DEAD on 12:15 pm
23 November 2009 - Growth, And The Irony
and so today in school during bioengineering process, my lecturer was talking about bacterial growth, and then suddenly to human growth...something like
"giving you double the amount of food doesn't mean you would grow twice as much. there is a limit where your growth stops."
I was so depressed by what he said, because my height stopped growth at the age of 16 T_T
I wished I had eaten more when I was still in secondary school times.
but hey wait, what if I can't grow vertically and instead grow horizontally?! maybe I would feel better if I think it this way =O
I swear I hate Gays alot, and whenever people talk to me bout them I would go bonkers because its just so wrong. Ironically, I love gay songs...like (s)he is one good example. =\
tada ! new album. For your Entertainment and Time for Miracles (bonus track, its 2012 movie song too) rocks big time. haven't heard the rest, unless 987FM recommends more.
"giving you double the amount of food doesn't mean you would grow twice as much. there is a limit where your growth stops."
I was so depressed by what he said, because my height stopped growth at the age of 16 T_T
I wished I had eaten more when I was still in secondary school times.
but hey wait, what if I can't grow vertically and instead grow horizontally?! maybe I would feel better if I think it this way =O
I swear I hate Gays alot, and whenever people talk to me bout them I would go bonkers because its just so wrong. Ironically, I love gay songs...like (s)he is one good example. =\
tada ! new album. For your Entertainment and Time for Miracles (bonus track, its 2012 movie song too) rocks big time. haven't heard the rest, unless 987FM recommends more.
Labels: random, topics and news
As Good As DEAD on 10:27 pm
21 November 2009 - Picture Speaks 1000 Words
as I looked almost all the pictures in my folder from the time frame 2007 till now, I realized how much everyone has changed throughout the years. 1 month 10 days here from now, how would the whole picture be like.
tracing back the events that happened since 07, I realized how fast paced life actually is. names got lesser, and came more troubles, and so now it is reduced to almost empty.
of All the posts I've made since this blog started, I'm going to make probably a best post out of it near the end of this year. and that would also near the end of the current phase of my life.
to be continued.
tracing back the events that happened since 07, I realized how fast paced life actually is. names got lesser, and came more troubles, and so now it is reduced to almost empty.
of All the posts I've made since this blog started, I'm going to make probably a best post out of it near the end of this year. and that would also near the end of the current phase of my life.
to be continued.
Labels: memories
As Good As DEAD on 3:34 am
19 November 2009 - Raindrops Brushing Across The Face
Yesterday - went for MT training, and saw a few matches the school was holding...I would say most of the fights were kinda lame because quite a few fought without putting much into thoughts and simply just exploded in the first round, then got exhausted in the second and third round. I would wanna think that because for some its the first or second time sparring, and that they were nervous and panicking away.
well, I never tried sparring before, so I wouldn't know how I myself would fare, but probably not very good since I'm still brushing up on the basics.
had dual session yesterday and it took all my energy away, and I actually woke up late today and eventually skipped PQM. the weather was fine in the morning, and then in the afternoon, raindrops came showering the grounds with that sweet scent of rain.
while I was on my way home, it was still pouring away, but I couldn't care less and just cycled back. it felt better than I expected, getting drenched and my bag looked as though it just got washed and left hanging somewhere.
and now? I'm sneezing away already. lol.
well, I never tried sparring before, so I wouldn't know how I myself would fare, but probably not very good since I'm still brushing up on the basics.
had dual session yesterday and it took all my energy away, and I actually woke up late today and eventually skipped PQM. the weather was fine in the morning, and then in the afternoon, raindrops came showering the grounds with that sweet scent of rain.
while I was on my way home, it was still pouring away, but I couldn't care less and just cycled back. it felt better than I expected, getting drenched and my bag looked as though it just got washed and left hanging somewhere.
and now? I'm sneezing away already. lol.
Labels: school
As Good As DEAD on 6:53 pm
16 November 2009 - Memories Cannot Fade
, for I cannot forget them, be it happiness or sorrows. I had long realized all that hate and rage were pointless, but theres nothing I can do to help myself.
As I looked back, even though I told myself countless times not to because it seemed so pointless, my mind and heart started to pace up a little. I could give it a smile and just let it go.
a few more months, everything would be different..no matter what the changes would be, I know I would feel better.
As I looked back, even though I told myself countless times not to because it seemed so pointless, my mind and heart started to pace up a little. I could give it a smile and just let it go.
a few more months, everything would be different..no matter what the changes would be, I know I would feel better.
Labels: thoughts
As Good As DEAD on 1:51 am
15 November 2009 - Celebrating Jason's 19
it seems like, out of the many special occasions, birthdays are one of those I enjoy the most, especially when theres celebration.
Dinner area at City Hall
Birthday Boy
LOL @ the right side
The Group Photo
And The Best Photo. (Name from left)
Kelvin + Shirui + Jason + Sheila + ZhenHong + Yuyang = Happy People
Happy 19th Birthday Jason !
Guess I should feel Fortunate and not look at the rubbish bin too much, even though the past may haunt me from time to time...the present is what I should look at. (everywhere as long as its not in classrooms or lecture halls that is)
Dinner area at City Hall
Birthday Boy
LOL @ the right side
The Group Photo
And The Best Photo. (Name from left)
Kelvin + Shirui + Jason + Sheila + ZhenHong + Yuyang = Happy People
Happy 19th Birthday Jason !
Guess I should feel Fortunate and not look at the rubbish bin too much, even though the past may haunt me from time to time...the present is what I should look at. (everywhere as long as its not in classrooms or lecture halls that is)
Labels: birthdays, hanging out, memories
As Good As DEAD on 5:50 pm
13 November 2009 - World Kindness Day
for the majority who do not know, today is kinda an extraordinary day, stated on the title. there is nothing much to explain, because we should appreciate what we have now and not to lose them. though I hate my life much, I still have to live on, because this life I have isn't solely mine.
crucial decision I have to make out of two choices which would affect my life a little, but I do not know which is the correct one. maybe there isn't even a correct one, and that both are wrong. whichever it is, I hesitated for so long, even until now I can't decide what I really want to do, for fear things would just get worse. nobody can give me an answer, nobody can tell me whether whats right and whats wrong for this matter, because its between black and white.
in other words - Grey.
crucial decision I have to make out of two choices which would affect my life a little, but I do not know which is the correct one. maybe there isn't even a correct one, and that both are wrong. whichever it is, I hesitated for so long, even until now I can't decide what I really want to do, for fear things would just get worse. nobody can give me an answer, nobody can tell me whether whats right and whats wrong for this matter, because its between black and white.
in other words - Grey.
Labels: thoughts
As Good As DEAD on 11:25 pm
12 November 2009 - PDPE Rush, Grinding The Basics
PDPE is mad, partly because we dragged it too long, but mainly is because its so tedious !
I NEED A BREATHER MAN ! but I guess WC and WS needs it more than I do, since they are handling more work. but whatever it is, its killing all of us.
I realised, techniques are limitless, and we can learn as many as we want. but in a real spar, it comes back to the same old few and useful techniques, which mainly consists of the basics, very seldom a full 6 or 8 step technique that is taught could be used in a fight. so now, its time to grind and perfect the basic moves.
I NEED A BREATHER MAN ! but I guess WC and WS needs it more than I do, since they are handling more work. but whatever it is, its killing all of us.
I realised, techniques are limitless, and we can learn as many as we want. but in a real spar, it comes back to the same old few and useful techniques, which mainly consists of the basics, very seldom a full 6 or 8 step technique that is taught could be used in a fight. so now, its time to grind and perfect the basic moves.
Labels: school
As Good As DEAD on 1:41 am
09 November 2009 - Regaining The Lost
can a sinner receive yet another chance to start everything over again? I thought to myself for quite some time, whether I would be forgiven for what I had done.
its painful to think, but sometimes I just can't help it. even if I exhaust myself to the maximum, when my eyes are closed, I would be thinking back of the events that happened back then.
regardless of what happens, I told myself, I would abandon this Pride of mine twice, when the time comes.
Ever since I started to train myself, I realised I'm having a humongous appetite...and its as though training becomes pointless because of the amount I consumed.
its painful to think, but sometimes I just can't help it. even if I exhaust myself to the maximum, when my eyes are closed, I would be thinking back of the events that happened back then.
regardless of what happens, I told myself, I would abandon this Pride of mine twice, when the time comes.
Ever since I started to train myself, I realised I'm having a humongous appetite...and its as though training becomes pointless because of the amount I consumed.
Labels: thoughts
As Good As DEAD on 10:06 pm
08 November 2009 - A Simple Gathering With Playmates
after not seeing several people for a few weeks, I finally got to hang out with them for today. played basketball for awhile and then eat and home. I drank a lot a lot of 100 plus for the day, which means I'm consuming a big portion of carbohydrates -_- wtf
anyway, what I wanna stress upon this post is that, I can put my mind off all fucked up stuffs whenever I'm out of my home busy or slacking away with a bunch of people. yes, ALL is the word. I don't have the time to think about how much work I need to do, what personal matters thats bothering me much, and the list goes on.
is that a good thing I wonder, for work wise that is. it looked as though I don't know how to prioritize my time and that I just hang out with my buddies. but to be honest, sometimes the work school gives is just so dull and pointless, they are just like nonsense.
I can never put in all my effort into doing something I have no interest in, so I would just rather give it up, go out and perspire myself, and let me forget everything else temporarily. at least it would lighten up my mood.
If I abandon that Pride, what would be the end result of that two situation eventually..
anyway, what I wanna stress upon this post is that, I can put my mind off all fucked up stuffs whenever I'm out of my home busy or slacking away with a bunch of people. yes, ALL is the word. I don't have the time to think about how much work I need to do, what personal matters thats bothering me much, and the list goes on.
is that a good thing I wonder, for work wise that is. it looked as though I don't know how to prioritize my time and that I just hang out with my buddies. but to be honest, sometimes the work school gives is just so dull and pointless, they are just like nonsense.
I can never put in all my effort into doing something I have no interest in, so I would just rather give it up, go out and perspire myself, and let me forget everything else temporarily. at least it would lighten up my mood.
If I abandon that Pride, what would be the end result of that two situation eventually..
Labels: hanging out
As Good As DEAD on 7:04 pm
05 November 2009 - Foodcourt Serves New Dish - Fresh Shit
http://singaporeseen.stomp.com.sg/stomp/sgseen/what_bugs_me/274588/parents_allow_kid_to_poo.html
Please allow me to use as much vulgar as possible for this post.
WHAT THE FUCK IS WITH PEOPLE NOWADAYS ESPECIALLY PARENTS? YOU CAN'T FUCKING TAKE YOUR KIDS TO THE TOILET TO SHIT AND YOU NEED TO DO IT IN THE MIDDLE OF THE FOODCOURT.
people need to eat, and they don't need extra 'aroma' coming from your child's asshole.
seriously, have they got no brains or are they plain retarded? this is like the lamest shittiest thing I've ever heard, I can't believe its a Singaporean's doing, but the fact is there. they should really fucking go have their meals and have the toilet bowls as their table for fuck's sake.
probably a special menu for that day "Fresh shit made on the spot, by locals at only $2"
The strange thing is, nobody confronted them? whatever, they are no brainers, even if anyone went to confront them, they would probably go "huhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh?"
Young made a comment about the news in facebook, and I laughed about it.
Parents let child take a CRAP in the middle of ION foodcourt. I bet the maid was all like "OH girl! Look what you've dung!"
Please allow me to use as much vulgar as possible for this post.
WHAT THE FUCK IS WITH PEOPLE NOWADAYS ESPECIALLY PARENTS? YOU CAN'T FUCKING TAKE YOUR KIDS TO THE TOILET TO SHIT AND YOU NEED TO DO IT IN THE MIDDLE OF THE FOODCOURT.
people need to eat, and they don't need extra 'aroma' coming from your child's asshole.
seriously, have they got no brains or are they plain retarded? this is like the lamest shittiest thing I've ever heard, I can't believe its a Singaporean's doing, but the fact is there. they should really fucking go have their meals and have the toilet bowls as their table for fuck's sake.
probably a special menu for that day "Fresh shit made on the spot, by locals at only $2"
The strange thing is, nobody confronted them? whatever, they are no brainers, even if anyone went to confront them, they would probably go "huhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh?"
Young made a comment about the news in facebook, and I laughed about it.
Parents let child take a CRAP in the middle of ION foodcourt. I bet the maid was all like "OH girl! Look what you've dung!"
Labels: topics and news
As Good As DEAD on 6:48 pm
02 November 2009 - A 'Prayer' Before Bed
and so before I go to sleep, I would have to hope things go well for WR DaSao.
I hope you can manage to persuade your mom before the December, you'll have all our blessings first ! I'll pray for you that everything would turn out like a fairy tale:
A Perfect Ending
P.S:I forced myself to use your favourite color for once, so appreciate it ! LOL
Kelvin Yeo (Mista Badass)
Up till 19.
Pisces. 24 Feb is when you get to call me old man
I'm your typical short guy living next door
Adaptive to everywhere I am in
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But do you understand its language?
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As Good As DEAD on 3:02 am
02 November 2009 - Spiritless, Listless, The D-Crap Man
I hate sleeping early, because I can't sleep through the night and ended up waking up at 11+ or 12+ night, and probably spend the night alone doing nothing. I hate that feeling seriously.
I just wanna kick the sandbag till both my shins get numbed, throwing jabs and crosses at the pads till my arms start to disobey me throughout the day.
basically, I just wanna knock myself out so that my mind can just switch off.
just how am I going to spend this night, unable to force myself to bed, and then still having to keep myself awake for a total of 14 to 16 hours starting from 8am? (and I've excluded the expected wakeup time + travelling duration) I don't wanna sleep in school, but I can hardly focus like seriously.
My life is like the second line of the tag there.
I just wanna kick the sandbag till both my shins get numbed, throwing jabs and crosses at the pads till my arms start to disobey me throughout the day.
basically, I just wanna knock myself out so that my mind can just switch off.
just how am I going to spend this night, unable to force myself to bed, and then still having to keep myself awake for a total of 14 to 16 hours starting from 8am? (and I've excluded the expected wakeup time + travelling duration) I don't wanna sleep in school, but I can hardly focus like seriously.
My life is like the second line of the tag there.
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As Good As DEAD on 12:41 am
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